2025 end

I decided to try writing a short year-end recap.

I haven’t written anything in a long time, and honestly I don’t really feel like it right now, but I’m not going to break my tradition =)

The word that sums up this year is disappointment… in everything: things, people, countries, ideas…

I just skimmed through my journal — the one I write in almost every day (usually just a couple of words about what I did and how the day went), and there wasn’t much joy in it. I’m tired of everything.

Stuff? I bought a new MacBook / iPhone / Apple Watch / whatever — and felt nothing. To be honest, I didn’t even need the iPhone; I had to talk myself into it, because my iPhone XR was totally fine. I started making more money — same thing. Okay, it’s slowly piling up. Crypto dumped hard and I’m down around ~$10k — same thing. I know it’ll come back (in a year, two, three — what’s the difference).

People? I already wrote about my friend. And in general, everyone who’s still in Russia is a disappointment to me — especially those who could leave, but don’t want to give up their comfort.

Countries? USA / EU — are you out of your minds?!

Ideas? I didn’t come across any new “wow ideas” this year. Same old stuff. Everything feels boring.

Normally I’d write about my top movies / books / games of the year next, but… nah. I mostly watched horror movies. I basically stopped playing games (except Hearthstone and GeoGuessr once in a while). Books — I read around 70 this year; I’d say The Phoenix Project was the best.

Oh yeah — I bought a Kindle, and that’s my purchase of the year. Not joy, but at least convenience. I gave away all my paper books — every last one — to my wife, and she gifted them to local friends.

Next year I’ll most likely move this blog fully into SaaS / indie hacking and that kind of stuff (and of course programming), and I’ll hide posts like this — personal and entertainment — somewhere deeper, so search engines don’t get confused.

This recap probably turned out pretty dark, but honestly I just don’t care about anything, and that’s okay.